Mindful Grieving

Lisa Schmidt is a certified provider in Compassionate Bereavement Care

Lisa Schmidt is a certified provider in Compassionate Bereavement Care

What does it mean to grieve?

Certification as a Compassionate Bereavement Provider

Lisa is the lead therapist at the MISS Foundation in Phoenix, AZ.

           Losing a child, a parent, a best friend, a marriage – all are losses.  Different for each of us, there is no roadmap or prescription that dictates how long  or HOW each of us should grieve.  Many of us are lost in our losses – having limited experience with grief and loss, and not knowing which physical responses are “normal” or even predictable, we struggle through our journey coached along with the “encouragement” of our close friends and family who urge us to “get over it” and “move on.”

          Ten years ago when my Mother died, I felt she was “in” my body, her energy somehow taken up residence in the forms of strange aches and pains and many health related problems that I could barely begin to describe.  When I sought help from my Internal Medicine doctor, asking him for a referral to a counselor, he replied: “you don’t need counseling, your father needs social services!”  This deflection by a kind and normally very compassionate physician sent me on my own journey towards healing, leading to advanced studies in yoga, yoga therapeutics, whole foods nutrition, and mental health counseling.

          I learned that very few traditionally trained clinicians were comfortable talking about death and dying, and those who were the most comfortable were often involved with what I call Ancient Wisdom, teachers of yoga and buddhism and meditation who were involved with the BIG questions of life – what I call the Existential Questions.  There are no answers that make sense – we must make our own sense out of events that transform our lives and over which we have no control.  Life, death, loss, suffering – none of us are spared.  Without any type of preparation, we are rocked to our core, lost in our own suffering.

          Combine our lack of preparation, our first hand experience with death and loss,  with the American fantasy of muscling through pain by throwing ourselves into work; it is akin to the dream that if only we show ourselves to be creatures of will (staying in shape, eating organic) we will stave off illness forever. Our own death avoidance is at the heart of this ethic. We have a knack for gliding over grief even in books where it might seem to be central, such as “Hamlet” and “The Catcher in the Rye.” Their protagonists may be in mourning, but we tend to focus instead on their existential angst, as if the two things were unrelated.  My brother recently shared with me that when he was mourning our father he had to remind himself that “just about any topic pertaining to a dead person . . . still made people in the West uncomfortable.”

          So how do we find our way when we have no roadmap?  What helped me was finding a compassionate presence; people I could talk to, cry with, feel with, who listened, truly listened.  They did not judge me; they did not call me “mentally ill” or rush my grieving.  They knew that suffering is part of being human, and profound grief is due to deep love.  Deep love means deep pain; deep pain has no timetable.  What helped me heal, and what helps me in life is knowing that a skilled counselor who knows how to provide a compassionate presence and walk with me by my side as I made sense out of my losses helps people get better.

          As a certified provider in Compassionate Bereavement Care, I’ve been trained in a model that views loss and grief as normal, healthy, and expected.  And painful.  And horrible.  And heartbreaking, sad, lonely.  I am prepared to sit with you as you cry, scream, shake, rail against God, the world, and anyone who tells you to get over it.  If you find that other things in your life cause you pain and suffering, like overeating, undereating, insomnia, anxiety, digestive problems, I’m trained to help you with those other things, too.  As a Certified Nutritionist, Yoga therapist, and mindfulness based counselor, I can help you feel better.  I promise to sit with you, without judgment, and with love and compassion, as long as it takes.  Contact me today.