Have you ever considered what purpose your eating pattern serves? Any type of disordered eating pattern, whether it is restricting food intake (a “diet”),
counting calories obsessively, counting fat grams, avoiding entire categories of food (dreaded “gluten”, “carbs”, or “sugar” are three examples), overeating past the point of satisfaction, throwing up, compensatory behaviors like laxatives or exercising to extreme – all of these patterns are your relationship to food. And your relationship, like any other relationship, serves a purpose in your life.
What would you be doing with your life if you weren’t spending all of your time counting calories? Hating yourself? Wishing you were something – anything other than you think you are? How much time are you spending each day with thoughts about food, feeding, body size & weight? Most importantly, what would you be thinking and feeling if your mind wasn’t occupied with thoughts about food and your body?